Never Alone by Tammy Nicole Glover

“Oh Lord, you have searched me and know me.” Psalm 139:1

Three thousand, six hundred and twenty-eight- that’s how many tears you shed today. When the alarm went off this morning, you hit the snooze button, rolled over and mumbled, “I can’t do this.”

I softly whispered in your ear, “we’ll get through this day, together.”

You cried as you stood under the shower, thinking that no one could hear you, but I did. I cried with you and I patiently waited for you to talk to me. Instead, you left for work without saying a word.

At work, I heard your boss as he listed all your mistakes. I know it made you feel unappreciated, frustrated and discouraged. I tried to tell you that I have something better lined up for you but I just need you to hold on for a little while longer.

You slipped in the bathroom and snuck a few more tears. I thought that you would want to talk but you couldn’t find the right words and gave up, even though I told you that you could never say anything that I didn’t already understand.

On the way home, I made sure that your path was well lit so that you could get home safely. You still didn’t say a word as you walked inside the house. You just went straight to the bedroom, curled up in bed and soaked your pillow with tears. I gently put my arms around you and waited for you to talk. When you finally cried out to me, all you could manage to say was, “Lord, please help me!”

That was all you ever needed to say. Your Heavenly Father is already here and I have never left your side. I saw every tear and felt every pain. I moved the clouds to make way for the sun to shine on you during the day and the moon and stars to shine on you during the night. I opened the flowers to show you their beauty and to perfume the air. I made the leaves on the trees dance and the birds to sing, just for you. Yes, my child, I love you that much and I just can’t leave you alone.