My Story from A to Z by Tammy Nicole Glover

My Story from A to Z by Tammy Nicole Glover

Apple of His eye

Before I was formed in my mother’s womb.

Chosen to be His daughter

Destined to serve in His kingdom

Even though He knew I would turn my back on Him.

Fighting to go my own way

Giving in to the lusts of my flesh

Hope faded.

Indescribable pain took residence in my heart

Jeopardizing my eternity.

Keeping my sins hidden left me exhausted

Longing for death, but still longing to be loved.

Moving further away from Light

Not wanting to be seen or heard.

Opening myself to more depression

Purposefully cutting myself off from life.

Questioning, why am I here

Remembering a blessed life with Christ.

Safety, I want to feel safe in His arms again.

Tortured by my past sins, I fear I will never be able to return to Him.

Used and abused by the demons that held me captive

Voiceless

What can I do to escape? I weep and He hears my silent cries

X-ray vision probe my heart. Seeing a heart marred with scars and infested wounds

You, Lord, know how to clean and heal me. I return to You, my Rescuer, my Savior.

Zealously, I will follow You.

I’m Still His (Revised) By Tammy Nicole Glover

I’m Still His (Revised) By Tammy Nicole Glover

As read on Balm for the Soul with Tammy Nicole Glover podcast.

When they said I was worthless because my skin wasn't light enough, my hair wasn't long enough
And my face not pretty enough
I was still His.

Though they laughed at me when I dared to expose my dreams and said I was crazy
I was still His.

When I was scared, mistreated and overwhelmed
And when the pain and loneliness made it difficult to breathe
I was still His.

When my pride took over and I thought I could do life on my own
When I tried to ignore His voice and searched for what I thought was better
I was still His.

There's no more denying the truth.
I have been the liar, He is the truth.
There's no where to run or hide.
I was His before I was formed in the womb.
Now, there is only the decision to either remain in Him or to be lost in the darkness.

I decided to remain in Him.
To accept and follow His commands.
To trust completely in His ways.
To stay humble before Him and grateful for His mercy.

He owes me nothing and I owe Him everything.
I am completely His
A daughter of the Most High God whose name is Jesus.

Heavy-Podcast Episode

Heavy-Podcast Episode

The all new episode of Balm for the Soul with Tammy Nicole Glover podcast is now available. Sit back, relax and be encouraged as Tammy reads the blog piece, “Heavy.” All new episodes are available every Monday, 12pm Eastern. https://anchor.fm/tammy-glover.

You can find the blog post for “Heavy” by clicking on the link: https://balm4thesoul.com/2020/11/11/heavy-by-tammy-nicole-glover/

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Lord, Don’t You Care Podcast Episode

Lord, Don’t You Care Podcast Episode

You can now listen to the post, “Lord, Don’t You Care,” and others on the new podcast, Balm for the Soul with Tammy Nicole Glover. All new episodes will be available every Monday, starting July 12th, 12:01pm Eastern. Sit back, relax and be encouraged with devotions that soothe the soul. Episodes available at https://anchor.fm/tammy-glover

Lord, Don’t You Care? By Tammy Nicole Glover

God of Comfort

Thank You, Lord, that even in my pain, You give me strength to comfort and encourage others. Thank You for the people that comfort and encourage me. You take care of us even when we don’t know how to take care of ourselves. You are truly a good God.

“Praise be to God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves receive from God.” 2 Corinthians 1:3-4 NIV

Fear of the Struggle

I know it has been a couple of weeks since I last posted something new. It has been a rough couple of weeks but I’m back. With that being said, this month’s theme is fear. This week I’d like to talk about the fear of the struggle.

When God has called you to do something, it can be exciting and scary but because it’s God and nothing is impossible for Him, you do it. You don’t think about all of the hard work and the struggles that you’ll face trying to do it until rejection hits. You shake off the first rejection, the second and even the third but when the tenth rejection hits you start to pause and rethink things. Every new battle leaves you a bit weaker and it starts chipping away at your courage. You think, I can’t take not one more beat down. You’re officially afraid of the struggle. You don’t know if the next battle or the next heartbreak will be the one to do you in.

Of course you can’t admit this to anyone. Christians aren’t supposed to waver in their faith and be afraid. After all, we walk by faith and not by sight. We’re supposed to call things that be not into existence. What will people think if you show your weakness?

The thing is, we are weak. It’s Christ within us that makes us strong. It’s Jesus that we must refocus on. If God promised something, He will do it. We just have to keep pressing forward. Yes, the struggle is real and it hurts but you will survive this.

“But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining towards what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ.” Philippians 3:13-14 NIV

Love Completed by Tammy Nicole Glover

Lord, You knew me before I came into this world. You knew that I would sin and rebel against You. But in spite of the heartache You knew I would cause, You still gave me life. You loved me so much that You sent Your Son to take my place to suffer the punishment that was meant for me. He laid down His life just so that I could have a chance to spend eternity with You.

Over the years, You carefully watched over me and provided for me. You patiently waited for me to turn my heart towards You. When I decided to accept Jesus as my Lord and Savior, You, along with all the angels and saints in heaven rejoiced. You forgave me and welcomed me into Your family. Now, I can hold my head up high because I no longer have the weight of my sin holding me down. I’m no longer ashamed of my past, it has now become my testimony.

Thank You, Lord. May the works of Your love be completed inside of me.

“My command is this: Love each other as I have loved you.” John 15:12 NIV