“What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee.” Psalm 56:3 KJV
You told me to follow You and I galloped towards Your outstretched hand. I was sure I would land on my feet, but instead, I fell on my back. I looked up and was surrounded by darkness. It was no ordinary darkness. It was suffocating. I couldn’t even see my hand lifted in front of my face. The pain was excruciating. My whole body hurt. It hurt to even cry, yet I couldn’t control my tears. “
What did I do wrong, Lord? You told me to follow You and I did. Why didn’t You catch me? Why am I blind?”
I hear you whisper, “trust me.”
“Trust You,” I say. “I trusted You but fell. I’m in pain…in the dark…alone.”
“I Am with you,” You say.
“Who or what else do you have to trust,” You ask.
I think about it for a moment. It’s true. I have no one else but God. He is the only one that even knows where I am. He created the path I’m on. His way is perfect. He is perfect. I am only the created thing. I can’t even fathom the Creator’s simplest thoughts.
I take a deep breath and brace myself for the pain of getting back up. My body is broken, so I can no longer gallop. I can only limp towards His voice. However, as I keep moving forward, I feel strength returning to my legs.
“Keep going,” He says. “You’re almost there.”
I find myself limping a little less.
“I know the plans I have for you,” He says. “All of this is working for your good. Don’t be discouraged or afraid, but be strong and courageous.”
I look down, and His words begin to light my path. I keep moving even though I don’t understand. My God, I can finally see the sunlight up ahead. As I step into the light, I realize I’m not the same.
“I had to make you stronger for the task ahead. You were not ready,” He says. “I had to keep you in the dark because if you were able to see the enemy surrounding you, you would have surely fainted.”
“Wait, that wasn’t the task? There’s more to do?”
“Look up,” He said.
I look up to see a great mountain before me. I gulp and wipe the sweat off my brow.
“As long as You’re with me, Lord, I will trust You.”