“For you, O Lord, have helped me and comforted me.”  Psalm 86:17

I’m letting go today.  I’m letting go of all the painful memories that haunt my dreams.  Letting go of the guilt from my past mistakes.  Letting go of the garbage that I’ve been collecting.  Letting go of every negative thing that was said about me.  Letting go every knife stuck inside my back.

I’m letting go of this pain, this fear, this worry.  I can no longer carry this weight.  I was never meant to be a receptacle for anger and animosity.

I’m going to allow the Lord to heal me.  I’m going to apply His Word to my wounds as a soothing balm.  I’m going to allow His love to restore me.

I’m going to remain in His presence.  His peace will cover me.  His arms will protect me.  His angels will tend to me.  Because I belong to Him.

I was beautifully created in His image.  I am loved, gifted, cared for and truly blessed.

Yes, today, I’m letting go, moving forward and holding on to Jesus.  I will rejoice and praise Him forever.

 

“Where does my help come from? My help comes from the Lord” Psalm 121:1-2

 

 

 

 

 

I woke up about three o’clock in the morning. It felt like there was a weight pressing against my chest. It was hard to breathe and I started to panic. My mind raced with worries but not about my health. It was the worries of the day, week and future that assaulted my mind. I thought about things I regretted, people who hurt me and people who I may have hurt. Once those negative thoughts started, they just wouldn’t stop. I sat up in bed and cried.

 

 

 

I hate crying. I hate feeling out of control. I wanted to talk to someone but the late hour prevented me from even looking at the phone. Besides, what would I say, “I’m freaking out and I don’t know why?” How could anyone possibly help me? How could they know the right words to say?

 

 

 

As the tears and worries continued to flow, I heard a voice whisper in my ear, “lean on me.”

 

 

 

That was all I needed to be reminded that I was not alone. I always have access to a never-ending supply of love. Sometimes when we are in the midst of pain or fear, we forget this fact. The Lord is always with us. He understands what we are going through, even when we don’t know how to put it into words. He can bring calm to chaos. He will give us wisdom that no one else can even conceive. He comforts us. He loves us, immensely and He is always available for His children. In your dark hours, lean on the Lord. He will never let you down.

 

 

 

“He who watches over you will not slumber.” Psalm 121:3

 

 

 

 

 

 

“Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?” Matthew 6:27

 

 

 

I have a confession to make. For most of my life, I have been living in the delusion that I am a superhero. By day, I’m the mild mannered employee, friend, sister and daughter but as soon as there is a hint of trouble, I throw on my cape and turn into: The Mighty Worrier Princess.

 

 

 

I can’t fly. I don’t have super human strength or speed. I can’t turn invisible. I’m not a  mind reader and I most certainly can’t move objects with my thoughts.  My super power is worrying and I can worry like nobody’s business.

 

 

 

Now,  like all super heroes, I have a weakness. My weakness is reality. In reality, my super power is useless. It doesn’t protect anyone. It doesn’t solve any problems. It doesn’t get bills paid and it doesn’t find jobs. What it does, is makes things worse. I get migraines,  sick to my stomach and my heart beats too fast. I also get depressed,  frustrated and angry.

 

 

 

Being a superhero is exhausting and I want out! I’m ready to retire. It’s time to put aside my delusional thinking and to call on a true super hero. He’s omnipotent, omnipresent and omniscient. He cures diseases. He has an army of angels. He created the heavens and the earth. He even conquered death. Superman, Batman and Spiderman don’t have anything on him.  His name is Jesus and He loves me and is waiting on me to stop this foolishness and call on Him. By the way, He’s waiting for you too.