My Story from A to Z by Tammy Nicole Glover

My Story from A to Z by Tammy Nicole Glover

Apple of His eye

Before I was formed in my mother’s womb.

Chosen to be His daughter

Destined to serve in His kingdom

Even though He knew I would turn my back on Him.

Fighting to go my own way

Giving in to the lusts of my flesh

Hope faded.

Indescribable pain took residence in my heart

Jeopardizing my eternity.

Keeping my sins hidden left me exhausted

Longing for death, but still longing to be loved.

Moving further away from Light

Not wanting to be seen or heard.

Opening myself to more depression

Purposefully cutting myself off from life.

Questioning, why am I here

Remembering a blessed life with Christ.

Safety, I want to feel safe in His arms again.

Tortured by my past sins, I fear I will never be able to return to Him.

Used and abused by the demons that held me captive

Voiceless

What can I do to escape? I weep and He hears my silent cries

X-ray vision probe my heart. Seeing a heart marred with scars and infested wounds

You, Lord, know how to clean and heal me. I return to You, my Rescuer, my Savior.

Zealously, I will follow You.

A Reminder to My Future Self By Tammy Nicole Glover

“They saw that the fire had not harmed their bodies, nor was a hair on their heads singed, their robes were not scorched, and there was no smell of fire on them.” Daniel 3:27 NIV

Dear Future Self,

So, another problem popped up and threatens to overcome you. Don’t panic! You’ve been through this before. It may be a different problem that looks bigger but God has not grown smaller, nor has He changed. He is still the Lord God Almighty, who has promised to never leave you nor forsake you. He is still the God who promised to supply all your needs according to His riches in glory. Don’t forget His commandment for you to be strong and courageous. Don’t be afraid or discouraged. He is with you. (Joshua 1:9)

My beloved future self, don’t doubt God’s love you. He has not removed His mighty hand from you. Surely, you can remember how He delivered you from the last crisis. He not only restored you but He placed you in an even better position than before. You were so blessed that you were able to help those around.

Dry your tears and be of good cheer, for Heavenly Father sees all and will answer your call. God is good, faithful and full of endless love and mercy. Now, is not the time to have a pity party. It’s time to praise God for your victory.

“When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze. For I am the Lord your God, the Holy One of Israel, your Savior.” Isaiah 43:2-3 NIV

It’s Time to Move the Mountain by Tammy Nicole Glover

“Truly I tell you, if anyone says to this mountain, ‘Go throw yourself into the sea,’ and does not doubt in their hearts but believes that what they say will happen, it will be done for them.” Mark 11:23 NIV

I woke up this morning with a mountain so huge that when I sat up, I hit my head against it. I don’t know exactly when or how it became so huge but I know I can no longer ignore it. I’m tired of looking at it. I said to the mountain, “you make me sick.” It still sat there, unmoved, while I became physically ill. I was too weak to try to climb the mountain so I decided to go around it. Unfortunately, I discovered that my mountain was far too wide to go around. I had to face it head on, but how?

I know I have faith that is at least the size of a mustard seed. I know what God’s Word says and I believe.  Why won’t this big, stupid, ugly mountain move? I cried out to the Lord for help and I heard Him say, “speak My Words.”

Once again, I face the mountain and I say, “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. God has not given me a spirit of fear but of peace, love and a sound mind. I forgive others as God forgives me. God has provided for all my needs according to His riches in glory. I am fearfully and wonderfully created by God. I am a new creation in Christ. By Jesus’ stripes, I am healed. God has not forsaken me nor has He left my side. God loves me, I am His child. No weapon formed against me shall prosper. I will praise the Lord at all times.”

As I speak, I feel a renewed strength grow inside me. I can still see the big, stupid, ugly mountain but now I can see a God who is bigger and mightier. I can see His angels encamped around me. I feel the power of the Holy Spirit inside of me. I’m ready to tell that mountain to move in the mighty name of Jesus, and the mountain moved.

“In all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us.” Romans 8:37 NIV

Stop Lifting Up What Is Tearing You Down By Tammy Nicole Glover

“You’re blessed when you’re at the end of your rope. With less of you there is more of God and his rule.” Matthew 5:3 MSG

You have big problems in your life. You’re feeling overwhelmed, confused, frustrated and lost. Some of you may even be feeling as if you are at the end of your rope and if you don’t get some relief immediately, you will not make it. I ask you, how long are you willing to allow your circumstances to beat you down? How long will you allow yourself to remain stressed out? Have you truly forgotten who your Heavenly Father is?

Let me remind you that your Heavenly Father is God Almighy. He created the universe. He is the same God that led the Israelites into freedom. He is the same God that parted the Red Sea so that they could flee from pharoah’s army. He is the same God that protected Daniel in the lion’s den. He is the same God that heals sickness. He is the same God that sent His Son to die for you. He is the same God that rose Jesus from the dead. He is the same God that loves you. He is the same God that sees your struggle and has compassion for you.

His hand is waiting to lift you up but instead of reaching for His hand, you ignore it. You grab a hold of the very things that have been tearing you down. Do you really believe that He is unable to help you or are you too prideful to ask for His help? Do you refuse to go to him because you doubt or do you think you are unworthy of his help?

Please, listen to me, God is big enough, powerful enough and He loves you enough to see you through whatever you’re dealing with today. The same God that knows exactly how many hairs you have on your head is the same God that is patiently waiting for your call. When He hears his children cry out to Him for help, He moves swiftly. He will not allow his children to be bullied. He will give you strength, wisdom and favor. You don’t have to know how He will do it, you just have to trust Him and believe that He will provide whatever you need, when you need it. Stop magnifying your problems and recognize that God is able to do exceedingly and abundantly above all that you could ever imagine or think.

“With your help I can advance against a troop; with my God I can scale a wall.” Psalm 18:29 NIV

“The Lord is my strength and my shield; my heart trusts in him, and he helps me.” Psalm 28:7 NIV

Step Back By Tammy Nicole Glover

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him and he will make your paths straight.” Proverbs 3:5-6

Step back, take a deep breath and listen closely. You can not go through trials and tribulations by yourself. You were never meant to go through them alone. The Lord did not mean for you lean on your own understanding. You were meant to lean on and trust in Him.

You were shocked and confused when the storm hit but God is never shocked. He saw what was coming well in advance. He’s not surprised when illness strikes, when a job is lost, when a family member is struggling with an addiction or when a financial crisis hits. He knew when it was going to happen and how to fix it.

Stop praying and asking God to deliver you and then pushing Him aside. Miracles can’t happen without Him and they can’t happen if your faith is placed in yourself and not in Him. Step aside and let God take the lead. He will open doors that you never knew existed. He will move and leave skeptics speechless. You are never alone. Don’t let your pride, fear, doubt or yourself stop you from receiving your breakthrough.

“Now this I know: The Lord gives victory to his anointed. He answers him from his heavenly sanctuary with the victorious power of his right hand.” Psalm 20:6

It’s Already Blessed By Tammy Nicole Glover

“But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.” Matthew 6:33 NIV

Some of us are wondering where our blessings are but if we look at ourselves we will realize that we haven’t done what God has called us to do. We have been waiting on God when He has been waiting on us to move. There are a lot of us that know what God has called us to do, yet we haven’t started. We want to do it and we have good intentions to do it but we find excuses not to do it. We let fear rule instead of our faith. Some of us have just flat out chosen to ignore what God has called us to do. We can’t see how what He has called us to do is important or relevant. We are comfortable where we are and we don’t want to put forth the effort to do anything anyway. Then there are some that don’t know what God has called them to do and aren’t trying to find out. They’re way too busy being led by the cares of this world.

Please, listen to me when I tell you that if God has called you to do something it is important. He has already blessed it. Yes, you will have to work. No, you won’t be able to do it on your own but then again you’re not supposed to. Do you realize that when we ignore God’s call, we are not only being disobedient but we are being selfish? God’s calling on your life is not about you. It’s about being a blessing to someone else. You are walking in love when you answer His call. Someone is in desperate need of whatever God has called you to do. Some of us are the product of someone else being obedient to God’s call. We may have found out about Jesus because someone was obedient enough to tell us. Our lives may have been saved because someone was obedient enough to pray for us. We may have been encouraged during a difficult time because someone was obedient enough to encourage us.

Answering God’s call is not something to take lightly. God’s call on your life is vital. If you are a believer, you are a soldier in God’s kingdom. We all have our parts to play. We are one body made up of many parts. If one part of the body isn’t working then the whole body is weakened. When one part is blessed then the whole body is blessed. Don’t miss out on your call and miss out on your blessing.

“Therefore my dear brothers and sisters, stand firm. Let nothing move you. Always give yourselves fully to the work of the Lord, because you know that your labor in the Lord is not in vain.” 1 Corinthians 15:58

30 SECONDS By Tammy Glover

“When you lie down, you will not be afraid; when you lie down, your sleep will be sweet. Have no fear of sudden disaster or of the ruin that overtakes the wicked, for the Lord will be your confidence.” Proverbs 3: 24-26 NIV

I can’t believe you woke me up in the middle of the night again. Despite how precious my time is, you continue to waste it. Every time I try to do something positive, here you come, rearing your ugly head. I’m not worried about hurting your feelings anymore because you’ve never been concerned about hurting mine, which you constantly do. Uninvited guests wear out their welcome mighty quick and you’ve been allowed to stay for far too long.

You have thirty seconds to get your things and leave. That’s right, just thirty seconds to get your worries. I’m tired of them waking me up. Thirty seconds to get your doubt. I’m tired of tripping over it when I walk out the door. Thirty seconds to get your chaos. I’m tired of looking at it in my house, on my street and at my job.

You’re making me sick, literally. My head hurts. My stomach is in knots. My blood pressure and my sugar are high. I’m exhausted. Why did I ever let you in here? You make me want to scream and pull my hair out.

Listen to me when I’m talking to you and wipe that smirk off your face! Fear, you have thirty seconds to go. I talk to a friend of mine, you may have heard of him. His name is Jesus. He told me that I don’t have to be afraid of you anymore. He told me that he came so that I can enjoy my life. I don’t have to be chained to you anymore. He said all things are possible with him. Remember all those times you said I couldn’t? I know you lied now. He told me to cast all my worries on him. He’ll provide for all my needs. He’ll advise me on what to do. He’ll comfort me. He’ll protect me. I don’t need you anymore, Fear. I just need for you to go. Love is here now. The clock is ticking. Remember, you only have thirty seconds. One, two, three…wait, you’re moving too slowly. I’m afraid you’re going to have to go now.

Oh what, you’re upset because I lied about you having thirty seconds? You’ve been lying to me all my life. Oh, I almost forgot to tell you, if I see you around here again or if I see you moving in on my family, friends, coworkers or enemies, I’m telling Jesus. You have to answer to him now. Goodbye!

“Now may the Lord of peace himself give you peace at all times and in every way. The Lord be with all of you.” 2 Thessalonians 3: 16 NIV

WHO IS HE? By Tammy Glover

“I am the bread that came down from heaven.” John 6:41 NIV

He is my sun in the rain. He is the sanity in my crazy. He is the right in my wrong. He is the common sense in my stupidity. He is the wisdom in my confusion. He is the hand that catches me when I fall. He is the joy in my pain. He is the calm in my chaos. He is the healer in my sickness. He is the protector in my recklessness. He is the light in my darkness. He is the courage in my cowardice. He is the confidence in my awkwardness. He is the supernatural in my natural. He is the comforter in my loneliness. He is the balm that soothes. He is in the words I write. He is the air I breathe. He is the reason for living. He is my past, present and future. He is the gift to my soul. He is in me. His love surrounds me and his light shines through me. Who is he, you ask. He is Jesus, my Lord and Savior.

“I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will never walk in darkness, but will have the light of life.” John 8:12 NIV

MY DADDY IS WATCHING By Tammy Glover

“For if you forgive men when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. But if you do not forgive them their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins.” Matthew 6:14 NIV

When you thought no one was watching, my daddy saw everything. He saw you break my heart. He saw you abuse me. He saw when you plotted and schemed against me. He saw you stab me in the back. He heard you lie to me and about me. He heard you say that I was ugly and that no one would ever love me. He saw you try to break my spirit. He saw you laugh when I fell. He heard every curse you spoke over my life. He saw you use me. He saw you cast me aside. He heard how you talked to me like I was something stuck on the bottom of your shoe. He heard you call me every foul name you could think of.

I wanted you to pay. I wanted revenge. I couldn’t wait until you felt the wrath of my daddy. When he didn’t seem to move fast enough, I wanted to scream. I wanted to throw things. I wanted to punch and kick. Then I realize that not only was my daddy watching you, he was watching me too. He was watching to see if I would be obedient and follow his teachings. He wanted to see if I would forgive you, if I would pray for you and if I would love you. For a brief moment I forgot these things. I forgot who my daddy is.

I don’t know why you chose to hurt me. Maybe it’s because you were hurt. Maybe you’ve never experienced true love. Maybe you’ve never seen a true representation of my daddy. I would love for you to meet him. Let me tell you who my daddy is. He goes by many names, God, Yahweh, Jehovah. He is the alpha and omega. He is almighty and he is love. He forgives and shows mercy. He lifts up those who have fallen down. He heals broken hearts. Even though we fall, he still loves us unconditionally. His purpose is never to hurt but to encourage and strengthen. I was created in his image therefore, I will forgive you. I will continue to pray for you and I will never stop loving you.

“I tell you: Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you, that you may be sons of your Father in heaven.” Matthew 5:44 NIV