Lord, Don’t You Care? By Tammy Nicole Glover

Lord, Don’t You Care? By Tammy Nicole Glover

As my heavy eyes finally begin to close and I drift off to sleep, I’m jolted awake. “Help me, help me,” my father yelled across the hall.

I don’t remember the last time I had slept for more than a couple of hours. It felt like he had been battling cancer for an eternity, but it had been more like a couple of months. His pain was increasing and the cancer that ravaged his lungs had moved to his brain.

I dragged my sore and weary body out of bed to see how I could comfort him. He didn’t want me, as such was the case most nights. He wanted my mother. I tried to explain that it was three in the morning but he insisted I get her anyway. With a heavy heart, I went upstairs to wake her, knowing she was working on as little sleep as I was. Swollen feet and legs, she made her way downstairs, pausing to offer up the only prayer she had strength to give. “Oh Father,” she said and continued downstairs.

I went back to my room and crawled into bed. After listening to my parents’ exchange for a few moments, I held the pillow to my face to muffle my cries. “Lord, don’t You care that we’re drowning in grief and pain? Where are You?”

As I retell the events of those months to a good friend, she looks at me in astonishment. “I’ve worked in hospice home health care for years and that was one of the most traumatizing experiences I’ve heard,” she said. “The fact that you’re even able to sit here and talk about it without breaking down is the power of God.”

Those few months while my father was sick were the worst and most painful of my life. I was gripped with intense depression, fear and anxiety. I was overwhelmed with holding down a full time job, caring for my mother who was battling her own health issues and a dying father, all with very little help. It didn’t feel like God was with me at all. However, now that I’ve been on the other side for a few years, I can see that He was.

I was so physically and emotionally exhausted back then it could only have been God that helped me function. I functioned so well that people who didn’t know about my situation had no idea what I was going through. It was only God’s strength that helped me to overcome so many fears during that time. He did care that my family and I were struggling. He brought neighbors to give us rides to the hospital and to help care for my father. He also brought friends to comfort us with prayer.

When we’re deep in a storm, it’s hard to think straight. All we can think about is surviving. We can feel so alone. We desperately search for someone who will see and rescue us but when no one comes, we look to God and ask why He doesn’t care about us. Why has He allowed such torment in our lives? I’m reminded of Matthew 8:23-27, where Jesus’ disciples faced such a situation. They found themselves in a boat during a violent storm. As the darkness enveloped them, their faith started to waiver. The boat was tossed to and fro, water poured into the boat, it looked like they weren’t going to survive. They looked at Jesus, peacefully sleeping oblivious to the danger, the One who had confidently told them they were going to the other side. They frustratingly ask Him, “don’t You care, Lord, that we’re about to die.”

Jesus calmly got up and told not only the storm but them, “peace, be still.”

It’s when we are still we can feel His presence. We can hear His calming voice. When we start to panic during the storm, we can’t hear, we can’t think, we can’t see. I don’t know your situation. I certainly can’t pretend to know why you’re going through what you’re going through. I can’t tell you how long it will last or why God has allowed it to even happen. I can’t even tell you that believing God is with you is going to magically and immediately change your situation. You will probably have to go through it for a while and it will be painful. God never promised that we wouldn’t have to go through the valley. He only promised He would never leave us nor forsake us and that we will get to the other side.

My prayer for you is that as you read these words, you are reminded that God loves you and He does care. I pray that you can find a moment to be still and feel His peace which transcends all understanding and hear His voice which speak words that are a balm to your soul. May His strength help you to fight another day.

“I call on the Lord in my distress, and he answers me.” Psalm 120:1 NIV

Good Enough

I feel like I’m not good enough all the time. That’s why I don’t rely on myself, I rely on the One who is inside of me. He is Jesus, my Lord and Savior. He is the God of More than Enough. I can do all things through Him. Nothing is impossible-not even moving mountains.

I can do all this through him who gives me strength.” Philippians 4:13 NIV

The Company We Keep

Who you walk with during a storm is important. There are some who allow the storm to blow them in any which way. They’re rooted in the world and moved by what they see. The storm dictates their moods and attitudes, so they may be seem unpredictable. Their concern is survival by any means necessary. When the storm is over they are broken and weak.

Then there are others who remain unmovable during a storm. They are rooted in the promises of God and not moved by what they see. They are constant and stable because the storm does not dictate their moods or attitudes. They’re concern is overcoming the storm. After the storm, they are stronger and whole.

No one should attempt to go through a storm alone but remember to choose wisely when deciding who to walk with.

“As iron sharpens iron, so one person sharpens another.” Proverbs 27:17 NIV

GET AN ATTITUDE

“If God is for us, who can be against us?” Romans 8:31 NIV

There comes a point during a battle when you have to decide enough is enough. You’ve been beat up for far too long and now it’s time to rise up and show the enemy who they’re really dealing with. You can’t sit there and hope that the attacks will stop and that the enemy will leave you alone. You have to get an attitude. Let him know that he can’t have your family, your sanity and he absolutely can’t have your praise.

Your Heavenly Father is God Almighty. He’s the same God that promised to supply all your needs, to never leave you nor forsake you and the One who has set His angels to guard you. His Son, Jesus, has already conquered death. Why are you just sitting there feeling sorry for yourself and allowing the enemy to steal your family, your peace and your dreams? Get an attitude with the authority given to you by Christ. You’ve come too far to give up now. The victory is already won. It’s time to claim your prize.

“In all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us.” Romans 8:37 NIV

WHAT DID I FORGET? By Tammy Nicole Glover

I’ve done all that I can do. I’ve prayed, I’ve fasted, I’ve immersed myself in the Word of God but still nothing has changed. It actually feels as if things have gotten worse. I’m afraid this is too much for me to bear. I don’t know what else to do. What am I forgetting?

Yes, I remember. I forgot to give the Lord Almighty praise. I’ve been so caught up in my problems that I forgot that God has been carrying me all along. When I didn’t know how I would make it out of the bed and carry on, it was God that gave me the strength. When I didn’t think I would ever stop crying, it was God who comforted me. When I was so afraid that I couldn’t think clearly, it was God who guided me.

Lord, You are the source of my strength, comfort and wisdom. I will trust You and praise You. Thank You for seeing me through every situation I face. Thank You for the encouragement to continue to press ahead. Thank You for loving me and providing for all my needs. Nothing is too hard for You and nothing is greater than You. This battle has already been won. All I have to do now is to thank You for the victory.

“Why my soul, are you downcast? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him my Savior and my God.” Psalm 42:11 NIV