I woke up this morning with so much anger and frustration. I wanted to cry, scream at the top of my lungs and demand a reason for why I have to be tested this way. I suppressed my urge to have a full blown, adult temper tantrum and remembered that God is good. He has never left my side and there’s certainly no reason for me to believe He will leave me now. I serve a faithful, loving God. I may not understand His ways but I can always count on His love. He has everything under control. I just need to trust Him.
Thank You, Lord, for Your grace and mercy. Thank You for loving me even in the middle of a temper tantrum. Thank You for molding me into a better person and strengthening my faith. Thank You for Your peace and guidance during any kind of storm. I know the One who stands beside me and He is God Almighty.
“Give thanks to the Lord, for he is good. His love endures forever.” Psalm 136:1 NIV
“Father, forgive them for they do not know what they are doing” Luke 23:34 NIV
You sat in glory since the beginning of creation. You saw how we struggled. You saw us dig ourselves in a hole that was so deep that there was no way we could get out of it ourselves. We didn’t even realize that we were even in a hole. We just thought that we were evolving. We were so blinded by our mess that we couldn’t even see that the hole was leading us to eternal damnation.
You came down from heaven to live among us. We were so used to our mess that we couldn’t recognize your presence. We couldn’t believe that you would lower yourself for us, yet you still revealed yourself to us. We denied you, we allowed you to be tortured and murdered, yet you still forgave us with your last breath as you hung on a cross. You took our place in hell and conquered death because you knew that eventually we would see our mess.
You love us so completely. No one has ever done something so beautiful and amazing for us. You went back to heaven to prepare a place for us. As you prepare, you are still patiently waiting for the good news to be spread across the ends of the earth. You’re still giving us a chance to come to you before it’s too late.
Thank you, Jesus. Thank you for loving me so much. Thank you for all that you endured on my behalf. It is because of you that I am able to call the Lord Almighty my father. It’s because of you that I am able to receive healing. It’s because of you that I have an army of angels protecting me and my family. It’s because of you that I am more than a conqueror. It is because of you that I am saved. No one else has done what you have done for me. There is nothing that I can do that will ever repay you for what you’ve done for me but you love me anyway. Thank you.
“I came so they can have real and eternal life, more and better life than they ever dreamed of.” John 10:10 MSG
“Yet not what I will, but what you will.” Mark 14:36 NIV
I’m constantly at war with myself. My spirit wants to follow God’s will but my flesh wants to do it’s own thing, and so begins the battle. My spirit wants to love and forgive despite how I’m treated but my flesh wants to curse and fight. My spirit wants to give freely but my flesh wants to hoard everything for itself. My spirit wants to be proactive but my flesh wants to procrastinate. My spirit wants to praise God for my blessings but my flesh wants to complain about my problems. My spirit wants to trust the Lord completely and to not be afraid but my flesh wants to doubt and hide. My spirit wants to rejoice but my flesh worries that people will think I’m crazy. My spirit wants to write and share this blog but my flesh doubts that anyone will be encouraged by it.
Sometimes, these battles between my spirit and my flesh overwhelm me. I get exhausted and want to give up, but quitting is not an option for me. I didn’t come this far to go back to the life I used to live. I can’t forget how much God loves me. He loves me so much that He gives me grace and mercy each day. He gives me the strength and encouragement that I need to fight these battles. He loves you just the same. He sees your struggles. He knows how hard this fight is. He wants you to know that He is with you and with Him all things are possible. He loves you and He will never leave you nor forsake you. Don’t give up. Keep praying, believing and following God’s will for you. He will never break His promises.
“Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is–his good, pleasing and perfect will.” Romans 12:2 NIV
“Then Peter got down out of the boat, walked on water and came to Jesus. But when he saw the wind, he was afraid and, beginning to sink, cried out, ’Lord, save me!’” Matthew 14: 29-30 NIV
It’s cold and dark. I’m surrounded by water. I see a magnificent light in the distance. It’s Jesus telling me to not be afraid and come to him. His arms are outstretched and waiting for me. I step outside of the boat and walk towards him on the water. I’m amazed at this miracle and I feel truly blessed to have been chosen by the Almighty.
There are others that have remained in the boat. They’re begging me to come back and to stop acting foolish. They’re telling me that I’ll surely drown if I keep going. It’s impossible to walk on water. The Lord tells me to stay focused on him for with man this would be impossible but for God all things are possible. I keep going but my own fears and doubts have added to the fears of the other people on the boat. I take me eye off the Lord for a second to look down at the water below and my fears overtake me. I can’t see how deep the water is because it’s too dark. The wind is becoming stronger causing the water to become choppy. I start to feel the icy water cover the tops of my feet. Overwhelmed with fear, I cry out to the Lord and immediately I feel his steady, strong arms wrapped around me. Why did I ever doubt him? He always does what he promises. He never leaves me nor forsakes me. He is my shepherd. His light chases away all the darkness. His love strengthens me.
I am no longer sinking. I am doing the impossible. I am walking on water with my Savior, my Healer, my Provider, my Best Friend–Jesus.
“When I said, ’My foot is slipping,’ your love, O Lord, supported me. When anxiety was great within me, your consolation brought joy to my soul.” Psalm 94:18-19 NIV
“If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him.” James 1:5 NIV
What is true wisdom? Wisdom is recognizing that you don’t know everything. It’s accepting that you’re not perfect. It’s admitting that you have made a mistake and that you need help. It’s seeking out and listening to those who have walked down the same paths successfully. It’s taking responsibility for your mistakes and not blaming others for the consequences of those mistakes. It’s learning from your mistakes.
True wisdom takes true humility and patience. You have to be humble and submit to God. You have to trust and know that his ways and timing are perfect. Wisdom is not putting God in a box. It’s realizing that God provides wisdom in all forms. It could come from an expert, a friend, a family member or the simplicity of a child’s words. Before shunning someone’s advice, pray, it may be the Lord speaking through them.
True wisdom is seeing the things in your life that hinder you from receiving answers. It’s being able to not only recognizing and pointing out the faults of others but recognizing and pointing out your own faults. Are you selfish? Are you bitter? Are you prideful? Are you arrogant? Are you greedy? Are you lazy? Are you afraid? Are you jealous of others? Are you stuck mourning the loss of a dream? Do these things prevent you from rejoicing in the blessings of others?
I know these are ugly words. They sting and your first response may be to become defensive. You might even be tempted to look at the person next to you with accusation but try to fight these urges. It’s ok if you see these things in yourself. Trust me, you’re not alone. True wisdom sees and asks God to remove these things from your heart. It recognizes that you will become better by His grace.
True wisdom is a rare gem. It’s priceless and it can be hard to find. It does not seek you out but you have to seek it.
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him and he will make your paths straight.” Proverbs 3: 5-6 NIV
“For all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God, and are justified freely by his grace through the redemption that came by Christ Jesus.” Romans 3:23-24 NIV
There is no such thing as luck but there is such a thing as grace. Grace is the unmerited favor of God. You can’t buy it. You can’t earn it. Grace is a gift given by God. The moment you opened your eyes this morning, you were given grace to get through another day.
Despite what you may have been told, you were not an accident. Your life does have a purpose. You may be a mess but by God’s grace you can be redeemed. It is by God’s grace that you receive all blessings. You are dearly loved even when you make mistakes. You are forgiven by God’s grace. Even if you feel like everyone is against you. You are never alone. Healing, wisdom and prosperity are all available to you in abundance because of grace.
Jesus died so that you could receive the gift of grace. Don’t let such precious gift go to waste.
“I will sing to the Lord for he has been good to me.” Psalm 13:6 NIV