I’m sorry. I admit I was too caught up in my own drama and grief that I didn’t realize you were lost. I was given one simple mission and that was to spread the Gospel of Christ. I was meant to be a witness for God’s love and greatness. Instead, I acted no different than someone who doesn’t know God. I’m sure that must have been confusing to see someone who claims to be a disciple of Christ completely ignore those in need. I gave you no reason to follow God or to even believe in Him, with my judgments and condemnation. I never tried to understand what you were going through. Once I received my salvation, I just focused on what God could do for me and not what I could for Him.
I’m not proud of this. I deeply regret it, especially now that I see how much anger and contempt you have for God and His people. I can clearly see your pain and confusion now. I failed you and I’m not really sure how to make up for it. I’m sure telling you I’m sorry is a start and I could tell you that you’re in my prayers but that just seems too contrived. What I can tell you is that even though I didn’t notice you were lost, God didn’t. You were never truly lost to Him. He has always had His eye on you. He has always loved you, even when you ignored Him, doubted His existence and cursed His people. He loved you enough to convict me for ignoring you. His very reason for creating this earth, sending His Son and giving you life is because He loves you. Don’t judge God based on my human imperfections and don’t let that determine where you spend eternity. If I’m wrong, no big deal but if I’m right, eternity is endless.
“For the Son of Man came to seek and to save the lost.” Luke 19:10 NIV
“As for you, see that what you have heard from the beginning remains in you.” 1 John 2:24 NIV
It doesn’t matter if your heart is broken. It doesn’t matter if you were betrayed. It doesn’t matter how much people talk about you. It doesn’t matter how many loved ones you have lost. It doesn’t matter if sickness attacks. It doesn’t matter how disappointed you are because you didn’t get what you wanted. It doesn’t matter how tired and overwhelmed you are. Don’t ever doubt the love of God.
He loved you before you were formed in the womb and He will continue to love you after you have taken your last breath on this earth. He loved you so much that He gave His only son for you. His son loved you so much that he endured torture and death for you. He literally went through hell and back just so that you could have a chance at salvation.
Don’t let anyone or anything make you doubt. God is with you. When you’re hurting, He can heal your broken heart. When you’ve been wronged, He can vindicate you. When everyone leaves, He is with you. When you’re attacked, He protects you. When you fall, He will pick you up. When you’re weak, He is strong.
When doubt starts to creep into your mind, remember God’s sacrifice for you. Remember the last crisis you thought you wouldn’t make it through but He saw you through it. Remember all the times you could have been dead but He rescued you. Remember when He told you to do something and you decided to do the opposite, yet He still blessed you. Remember how you made everything and everyone else top priority while He could barely get your attention, but He still waited patiently for you to return. He knew you would fall short but He never gave up on you. He still gave His son for you. He still believed that you were worth saving. Don’t doubt, just trust and know that He is.
“For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height, nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.” Romans 8:37 NIV