“For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.” John 3:16 NIV
On a lonely night, I got down on my knees and prayed to thee. Lord, I love you. I need you. I’m a mess without you. Come into my life and make me into the person that you want me to be.
My heart was opened. I was cleansed through and through. Your Spirit filled me. I was a new creation. I no longer wandered this earth as a spiritual orphan. I was now an heir with Christ. I was able to go boldly to the throne of God Almighty, who was now my Heavenly Father.
Lord, I thank you for your sacrifice on Calvary. It is because of you, Jesus, that I was made anew. It is because of you that I can love, that I am healed, that I am saved.
I will let the light that you have placed inside me shine. I will spread the good news that Jesus has risen and he is Lord. I will praise the Lord forever and ever.
“My mouth will speak in praise of the Lord. Let every creature praise his holy name for ever and ever.” Psalm 145:21 NIV
“But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.” Romans 5:8 NIV”
When I’m afraid to face the day, all I need to know is that Jesus loves me. He promised to never leave nor forsake me. When I’m broke and bills are due, all I need to know is that Jesus loves me. He said that he knows what I need before I ask and he will provide. When I’m confused, all I need to know is that Jesus loves me. He said that he will instruct and teach me in the way I should go. He gives his wisdom freely. When I’m under attack, all I need to know is that Jesus loves me. He said that he will command his angels to guard me in all my ways. When my heart is broken, all I need to know is that Jesus loves me. He sent his Holy Spirit to comfort me. He promised me peace and joy. When I’m sick, all I need to know is that Jesus loves me. He said that by his stripes I’m healed. When I fall, all I need to know is that Jesus loves me. His hand is always there to lift me up.
Jesus loves me, his Word tells me so. He gave his life for me. Jesus loves you too.
“For great is your love toward me; you have delivered me for the depths of the grave.” Psalm 86:13 NIV
“You did not choose me, but I chose you and appointed you to go and bear fruit–fruit that will last.” John 15:16 NIV
Even when they said my skin wasn’t light enough, my hair wasn’t long enough and my face wasn’t pretty enough. Even when they said my clothes weren’t expensive enough. Even when they said I wasn’t skinny enough. Even though they said I was crazy. Even when they said I was worthless. Even when they laughed at me when I dared to expose my dreams. I was still His.
Even when I tried to ignore His voice. Even when I thought I could do things on my own. Even when I fell. Even when I searched for something better. Even when my pride took over. I was still His.
Even when I’m scared. Even when I feel outnumbered and overwhelmed. Even when I’m mistreated. Even when I’m wrong. Even when I’m in pain. Even when I’m in doubt. I’m still His.
There’s no more denying the truth. There’s no point in running from His call. I was His before I came into existence and I will always be His. I might as well accept His grace and mercy. I might as well accept His wisdom. I might as well accept His pure, unconditional love. I might as well get used to being blessed because I belong to Him, God Almighty.
“My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place. When I was woven together in the depths of the earth, your eyes saw my unformed body. All the days for me were written in your book before one of them came to be.” Psalm 139: 15-16 NIV
“I urge you to live a life worthy of the calling you have received. Be completely humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in love. Make every effort to keep with the unity of the Spirit through the bond of peace. There is one body and one Spirit–just as you were called to one hope when you were called–one Lord, one faith, one baptism; one God and Father of all, who is over all and through all and in all.” Ephesians 4: 1-6 NIV
It’s not my place to judge you or to look down on you. It’s not my place to manipulate you or control you. It’s not my place to harass you and make your life difficult. It’s not my place to turn my back on you when you’re in need and withhold my help. It’s not my place to tear you down or enjoy seeing you fall.
It is, however, my place to show you compassion. It’s my place to find out what I can do to help you and not how you can help me. It’s my place to let you go to allow you to learn things on your own and to let you discover your own path. It’s my place to let you see the light that God has placed inside of me. It’s my place to encourage you and to offer my hand to help lift you up. It’s my place to pray for you. It’s my place to love you.
Do you know your place? Now, before you answer that question, truly think about it. Do you really know your place and are you there? Do you realize what an honor and blessing it is that God has chosen you; that he has called you to be a representation of himself? Do you know how much it breaks His heart when you don’t stay in your place? When we hurt each other, our brothers and sisters, it hurts our Father too. I ask you again, do you know your place?
“You did not choose me, but I chose you and appointed you to go and bear fruit–fruit that will last. Then the Father will give you whatever you ask in my name. This is my command: love each other.” John 15: 16-17 NIV
“For if you forgive men when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. But if you do not forgive them their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins.” Matthew 6:14 NIV
When you thought no one was watching, my daddy saw everything. He saw you break my heart. He saw you abuse me. He saw when you plotted and schemed against me. He saw you stab me in the back. He heard you lie to me and about me. He heard you say that I was ugly and that no one would ever love me. He saw you try to break my spirit. He saw you laugh when I fell. He heard every curse you spoke over my life. He saw you use me. He saw you cast me aside. He heard how you talked to me like I was something stuck on the bottom of your shoe. He heard you call me every foul name you could think of.
I wanted you to pay. I wanted revenge. I couldn’t wait until you felt the wrath of my daddy. When he didn’t seem to move fast enough, I wanted to scream. I wanted to throw things. I wanted to punch and kick. Then I realize that not only was my daddy watching you, he was watching me too. He was watching to see if I would be obedient and follow his teachings. He wanted to see if I would forgive you, if I would pray for you and if I would love you. For a brief moment I forgot these things. I forgot who my daddy is.
I don’t know why you chose to hurt me. Maybe it’s because you were hurt. Maybe you’ve never experienced true love. Maybe you’ve never seen a true representation of my daddy. I would love for you to meet him. Let me tell you who my daddy is. He goes by many names, God, Yahweh, Jehovah. He is the alpha and omega. He is almighty and he is love. He forgives and shows mercy. He lifts up those who have fallen down. He heals broken hearts. Even though we fall, he still loves us unconditionally. His purpose is never to hurt but to encourage and strengthen. I was created in his image therefore, I will forgive you. I will continue to pray for you and I will never stop loving you.
“I tell you: Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you, that you may be sons of your Father in heaven.” Matthew 5:44 NIV
“So then, brothers, stand firm and hold to the teachings we passed on to you.” 2 Thessalonians 2:15 NIV
Please excuse my grammar this week but I have a serious attitude. When I say I’m a child of God, therefore a co-heir with Christ, I ain’t playin’ (Romans 8: 16-17). When I say that I’m not the person I used to be, I ain’t playin’ (2 Corinthians 5:17). When I say I’m healed, I ain’t playin’ (1 Peter 2:24). When I say I’m blessed and favored, I ain’t playin’ (Psalm 5:12). When I say I am loved, I ain’t playin’ (John 3:16). When I say I will succeed, I ain’t playin’ (Psalm 138:8). When I say I’m beautiful, I ain’t playin’ (Psalm 139:14). When I say I’m protected, I ain’t playin’ (Psalm 91:9-12). When I say was chosen, I ain’t playin’ (1 Thessalonians 1:4). When I say I’m more than a conqueror, I ain’t playin’ (Romans 8:37). When I say I’m free, I ain’t playin’ (Galatians 5:1). When I say I’m armed, I ain’t playin’ (Ephesians 6:11-18). When I say I’m not worrying, I ain’t playin’ (1 Peter 5:7). When I say I will not be controlled by fear, I ain’t playin’ (2 Timothy 1:7). When I say Jesus is coming back, I ain’t playin’ either (1 Thessalonians 4: 16-17).
When the enemy attacks, get an attitude. Let the enemy know that you ain’t playin’. Stand on the promises of God and boldly profess them. A storm is not the time for you to become passive. It’s not the time for you to lose hope. It’s time to hold on even tighter to your faith. It’s time to praise the Lord even harder. If you don’t have faith that God is almighty and can do all things, you have already lost the battle. Have no doubt. God loves you and He is with you. He will deliver you.
“And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him.” Hebrews 11:6 NIV
“But when they looked up, they saw that the stone which was very large, had been rolled away. As they entered the tomb, they saw a young man dressed in a white robe sitting on the right side, and they were alarmed. ‘Don’t be alarmed,’ he said. ‘You are looking for Jesus the Nazarene, who was crucified. He has risen!’” Mark 16:4-6 NIV
So many of us live as though we are trapped in a tomb. We’re sealed in by our pasts. We continue to relive our mistakes and past hurts. Our old ways of thinking and behaving haunt us. We want to escape the stinking decay around us but we forget that the stone has been rolled away. When we accepted Jesus as our Lord and Savior, we were set free from our past. It’s ok to step outside of our tombs.
We are no longer bound by our old ways of living. When Jesus arose from the dead, so did we. Our thoughts should be higher. Our dreams and goals should be higher. Our actions should be higher. Now, more than ever it is time for us to remember this. Let go of the past and step into the light. Praise God, the stone has been rolled away!
“As you come to him, the living Stone–rejected by men and chosen by God and precious to him–you also, like living stones, are built into a spiritual house to be a holy priesthood, offering spiritual sacrifices acceptable to God through Jesus Christ.” 1 Peter 2:4-5 NIV
“I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will never walk in darkness, but will have the light of life.” John 8:12 NIV
He didn’t come so that we could be oppressed. He wasn’t subjected to ridicule and humiliation so that we could be depressed and lonely. He didn’t have a crown of thorns placed on his head so that we could be confused. He wasn’t beaten and tortured so that we could be powerless and allow life to beat us down. He didn’t hang on a cross so that we could live in fear. He wasn’t pierced in his side so that we could live in sickness and poverty. His blood wasn’t shed so that we would continue to live in darkness. He wasn’t raised from the dead so that we would lose hope.
Jesus suffered, died and was raised from the dead so that we could have an abundant life. He loves us. Enough is enough. It’s time that we know and walk in the truth.
We’ve had enough of being depressed. He left us joy. We’ve had enough of walking in fear. We have the power of God inside of us. We’ve had enough of being oppressed by the enemy. He can deliver us. We’ve had enough sickness. He can heal us. Again, I say, enough is enough. Let us reclaim our rightful inheritance as a child of the Most High.
“For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.” John 3:16 NIV
“Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.” Philippians 3:13-14 NIV
“Excuse me, don’t I know you,” I ask staring into a pair of eyes full of tears. I take a step closer, “you were there when my heart was broken. When I was rejected. When I was at my lowest. You said that fighting was hopeless. You said that I wouldn’t make it. You said that my situation would never change. I heard your voice in the middle of the night begging me to give up because it was just too much.
“I almost believed you. Your voice was so familiar and soothing. It felt like you were trying to spare me further pain, but before I gave up, I had to face you one more time. I had to look into those eyes so that I could know for sure what I was dealing with. I can see that you’re scared and frustrated. Life has beaten you down. You’re tired of crying yourself to sleep. I understand, but it’s time for you to shut up and listen to what God has to say. It’s time for you to be still and stop trying to fight this battle alone. It’s time for you to let go of your pride.
“I know it’s scary and it hurts. I know it feels like this struggle will never end. I know it’s lonely. Your Heavenly Father is with you. He loves you dearly. He loved you before you were even formed in your mother’s womb. He created you in His image. He knows exactly how many hairs are on top of your head. He knows how many tears you’ve shed. He knows all your weaknesses, all your secrets and all your dreams and yet He still loves you and wants you to succeed. He has been trying to get your attention. He wants you to open your eyes and see the blessings He has in store for you. He wants you to fully receive His gifts. He has plans for you that are so amazing you can’t even begin to imagine. You have to allow Him to mold you and guide you. You have to place all your worries and fears in His hands. You have to let Him heal your emotional and spiritual wounds.
“Yes, I definitely know you. I’m looking at my own reflection in the mirror. I’m going to keep on encouraging you. I’m going to keep on being patient with you. I’m going to keep on loving you. I will never give up on you and neither will God.”
“How precious to me are your thoughts, O God! How vast is the sum of them! Were I to count them, they would outnumber the grains of sand. When I awake, I am still with you.” Psalm 139:17-18 NIV
“You have been set free from sin and have become slaves to righteousness.” Romans 6:18 NIV
This is my official resignation letter. I am resigning my position as worrier, regretter, self-doubter and self-punisher. I have served in this position faithfully for most of my life. I don’t fill fulfilled any longer and not to mention, the pay has been less than stellar.
Despite the stress of this position, I do believe it served a purpose. It has taught me several things. I have learned that God is with me, always, even if I don’t listen and try to do things my own way. God is always patiently waiting for me to open my arms to Him after I have fallen. I also learned that my current position is not where He has meant for me to stay. I didn’t realize I was blind until He opened my eyes.
Praise God, He has offered me a new position. I have humbly and gratefully accepted His offer to become one of His faithful followers. I no longer have to worry because He provides for everything. I no longer have to doubt my worth because I am apart of His royal family. I no longer have to punish myself for past mistakes because He has forgiven me. I no longer have regrets. Well, maybe I do have one regret leftover. I do regret that it took me so long to accept God’s offer.
Well, it is time to say goodbye to this position. I can’t give you a two weeks notice, as my new position starts immediately. I also won’t be able to come back and visit. My new position does not allow me to look back. I am so excited; I’m finally on the right path to my destiny.
Loyal servant of the Kingdom of God
P.S. I also plan on recruiting as many of my coworkers too, so expect many more resignations.
“If you hold to my teaching, you are really my disciples. Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.” John 8:31 NIV